In the Beginning..

Okay so...Here.We. Go!  I am 42 and overweight.  But I have dreams.  I want to be a runner some day.  Not talking marathons but would like to do some 5k's.  I have always wanted to.  So now, since I am not working and  all my kids have grown and moved out, I really don't have many excuses to not get fit.  Since this is my first blog on Fat to Fit I feel like I am behind.  This is going to be some miscellaneous stuff to get started.  First, is my shock picture.  The picture that made me go, "Who is that talking to my son?  OMG!  IT'S ME! "

And here is a picture of a skinnier me a few years ago.

 I went to a Pilates/yoga class the first time ever on Tuesday.  It was ..ummm...interesting.  Here is a copy of my blog about it that I posted on sparkpeople.com. The second class is today.  I am debating if my stomach muscles can take another day of it already.
Spark People Blog:
 Yes. Yes, I went to pilates. Got to the school commons area and there was only a table of elementary aged girls. A group of girl scouts maybe. No, younger. Must have been Brownies. And after a few minutes the instructor came. Very cheery. Then two other women showed up. I was sizing them up. Hate to admit it but that's what women do. The first one, late twentyish, short and skinny as a pole. Great. The second mid thirty's maybe. Taller than me, not skinny but by no means fat either. So here I was oldest, fattest. And yes I know I should not judge/label myself that way but hey, that's just how it is. I'm okay with that cause someday I will call my self fit, healthy and in my prime. So, we started the class just us and the little girls in the back of the room. I can handle it. Then during during warm up, in walks a group of man/boys. They sure didnt look that big when I was growing up. They were there to exercise too. Seriously? Not with us but in another part of the same room. How is this going to work out? Awkward. Luckily the stage area was empty so we hid behind the curtain and continued on. The class was actually pilates/yoga mix and I couldnt do most of it. In fact, I was winded after just the warm up. Jogging in place and jumping jacks. I hate jumping jacks. It has something to do with my fat bouncing up and down and my arms flailing over my head. But "Thank you Jesus" there were no mirrors! And I lasted till the end. No, I couldnt do a lot of it but I was there until the end and hopefully, nest time I can do more.

So, as far as my eating has been going; It has been great during the day.  At night, however, is a different story.  I want to eat everything! Not going so well. I just have some serious munchies.  I am so used to the 'full' feeling when I eat that when I actually eat what is a correct portion the full feeling isnt there and that makes is tough. But, I am just going to keep going and see what happens.